18 months old!

The girls are 18 months now and full of LIFE! They have quite the vocabulary already. They only want to be "outside" all day long until it is "night,night" time. They love playing with each other, us, and other kids- and thankfully can entertain themselves well. We have given the grandparents a list of play-things to help us build a indoor playroom for the winter. I am a little nervous about not being able to let them expel energy in the winter if weather is bad. We have asked for an indoor playhouse, slide, climbing blocks, and shopping carts for their kitchen. Hopefully it will be a hit! We have been teaching them about a "baby" in mommy's tummy. They now point to tummy and say baby, then raise my shirt and kiss baby and say "hi baby". Then, they will say "bye, bye baby" and pull the shirt down! i know they don't really know what is going on but it is a start! Here are a few pics as of recently when the had their first cold, but had to play "dress-up" "outside" The are so precious and we love them more each day!

Caitlyn

Carley

Team Blue!

OMG- It's a BOY!

A BIG BOY! All well otherwise! Baby measuring 8 days ahead but not surprising since my family has big babies! Although, I am measuring right on track!

He weighs 12 oz and heartbeat 148!

Otherwise, all parts and organs accounted for and appear normal!

I still can't believe that I am :

1. Pregnant on my own

2. Having a Boy!

Super blessed!

Half Way

20 weeks! Half way already! Today is big ultra-sound to check all organs, etc for normal development! Can't wait to see the little one as it has been 7 weeks since last Ultra-sound which feels like forever since I had one a month with the twins. Still unsure of if we will find out sex. Guess we will be a game-time decision:)

Back later with the details! Wish us luck!

Do we find out?

Well, 3 weeks to go until our next US and the common question I get is...

Are you going to find out the sex?

Well, we both don't care and just want a healthy report and baby in a few months, but we really need to decide on the "sex" things prior to the appointment.

DH wants to not find out since this was the ultimate surprise, gift, blessing etc and as he says"it really does not matter anyway" since we have all the basics (except close for boy) anyway. He really wants to wait and there is a part of me that does as well.

On the other hand, though, I feel I need to know to plan the nursery theme, clothes, etc. Because let's face it, with 2 toddlers my free-time now is sparse not to mention when the new baby comes and I am trying to heal from a C-section. The other thing pulling me to find out is the "bonding" thing. I feel with the twins and work and life, I have not spent as much time thinking and dreaming of and for this baby-I know that's life, but I feel bad in a way. I think maybe knowing would help me think a little more of him/her and plan accordingly.

All in all, I know this is all so NOT important in the grand scheme of life and all, but do we find out? Any thoughts?

Anxitey

What is it with this weird, spontaneous anxiety? I never had it with the girls, so it is really strange. TO go with it, the emotional breakdowns? Come one! It has happened twice in the last month, and I don't know why. Is it the hormones? Is it knowing precious this baby already is? Is it the fear of handling a family of 5, plus a full-time business owner in a sucky economy? I don't know what it is but it needs to go away, pronto! Anyone have this?

On to Trimester 2

Well, officially into trimester #2! Ultrasound last Friday, shows a very busy little baby! The baby is measuring 5 days ahead, so the may move my due date if the trend continues! It is very different seeing one baby in there instead of two- there is so much room! I am feeling much better the last few days: nausea starting to go away and energy starting to get slightly better! This is all going so fast this time it is unreal! Glad to be where we are!

One!

One perfect little heartbeat! Measuring on track for growth as well! Due date set for January 15, 2011 but will do c-section week before!

Here we go....

This time...

This time...

I thought I would try to just "enjoy" this pregnancy and just bask in the fact that we were blessed on our own to have been given this life!

I thought would be different-I thought I would not be as anxious, nervous, scared, impatient.

I thought since it is my second pregnancy, I would not analyze ever little thing, feeling, etc.

I thought since it is one baby, I would not fear every little thing.

But what I have realized is , this time is not really any different. Yes, one less baby in there, but I still have all the feelings, emotions, etc i had last time, maybe even more. I know how high the stakes are and how blessed we were to make it to term with 2 healthy, wonderful, beautiful babies. But maybe thats ok- because if this time is no different then our end results will hopefully be the same (just with one baby).

I'm trying to tell myself that anyway :)

5 more days til we see little bean! Can't wait!

Are you serious?

So let's cut to the chase...Mother's day surprise-PREGNANT!

Are you serious! Yes very! We are shocked and in awe and over the moon! Still trying to get our minds around having 3 kids under 2, but we can do it!

Just to refresh...

Several years of trying with no BFP.

Diagnosed with enodmetreosis and tubal non-function. Several surgeries could repair left tube and right tube barely functioning.

IVF#1- ectopic- lost barely functioning right tube due to rupture and had emergency surgery to remove.

FET#1-BFN

IVF#2-BFP-twins-14months old

Knew I was not feeling well, and had an odd feeling of nausea that I remembered with the girls. Took a test left from that pregnancy and about passed out!

We had ultrasound today and some how my non-functional, no repairable left tube must ave decided to function and there you go- a happy surprise pregnancy. One baby in uterus not tube (thank goodness) and measuring on track at 5 weeks 1 day.

WE go back in 3 weeks to varify a heartbeat. It is early, I know but it is a devine intervention to say the least!

HEre we go AGAIN!

1 year already?

Caitlyn Carley

The girls have turned 1! I can't believe they are already 1 and walking now! Both are in the 3-5% in height and weight, but 50% for head size - must be the really big brain growing in there! We are fully on adult food and whole milk now, and the girls are already weening themselves on to big girl cups with straws-they cannot have any of that baby bottle stuff:) We are having a blast each day with them and they are so much fun! Here are some pics from the zoo.

Phase 2

So we are starting phase 2-I can't believe it is already that time-Toddlers! The last 11 months have flown by and sometimes I wish that I could hit pause" to be able to relish in ever little thing. The girls change every day it seems just a little bit. We are all doing great-healthy and happy! It has been such a humbling learning experience this thing called parenthood. I hope to write more as we grow with the girls!